Guilt.

Things have happened. Some, important. & some, not so important.
But these things that has happened, not many people are aware of.
Well, because I've not told anybody. Except for the people at home, no one really knows.
There are many reasons why I didnt tell them. Mostly because i've been phone-less for a month
now. T_T

But whatever it it, I feel incredibely guilty !

So, let me summarize the things that have happened.

-results from previous college were out. not so good. not good at all.
-wanted to apply  somewhere else,BUT i was not even eligible -.-
-got a provisional letter to do the degree course I much love from my previous college.
-thought i'll just go there. thought i was left with no option.
-but never gave up.
-did a lot of research.
-wanted to get into a college which was approved by the Malaysian Medical Council so badly.
-found ONE college that accepted my FIS cert.
-BUT, i would have to go for a ENTRANCE exam. (MET-medical entrace exam)
-as usual, I behaved cowardly. didnt wanna do it. (because only I know how much I've forgotten!)
-dad,mom insisted in me doing it -.-
-had ONE week to study for 4 subjects ( syllabus comprising ALL secondary & pre-U subjects)
- practically died that week. alot of tears.alot of prayers.
-went for the exam. Cried in the hall. couldnt do it. Guessed my way out of it.
-told mom & dad to forget it. will never get in.
-the people in the college said they'll call the next day with my results. but, NO phone call.
-3 days later, they callled.
-they said I got in.
-2 days later, I was a registered student.
-Next week, I start my classes. (not officially)


So, see. Things just happens sometimes. I really didnt want to go back to my previous college.And its happening :)
I'm so sorry I didnt tell anyone. I didnt know how to say it to them (Especially to those who were going to be my course mates again, I didnt know how to break the news to you guys.)
I, truly, am sorry .Never had such good friends. Been so thankful.

But I dont think I will ever stop feeling guilty....

sorry.